Morning Walk Revelations

(Reposted from Instagram)

I had a #solviturambulando this morning, though that wasn't necessarily what I thought would happen.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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The sun was illuminating the edges of softly dying foliage. The sky was full of cotton-ball clouds (with silver linings, but actually). The breeze was light and held the scent of autumn and somebody's wood fire.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I put on new fave album (Who is the Baker? by @laurabarrettmusic). I love when I find perfect walking music, and this gorgeous record was the golden divining rod into my psyche this morning.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I began thinking about a problem I've had for a while, where I feel obligated to do a task that I don't want to do. I'm negative when I'm doing it, the task exacerbates frustration and all I can think about is how I wish I could be doing something different. BUT, the reason I must do it outweighs everything else. (I'm being purposefully vague here for privacy.)⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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This morning I was contemplating about how I can't wait to not have to do that any longer so that I don't have to feel the negativity, and WHAM. A thought exploded: "You're going to have to figure out how to be positive in this task before you don't have to do it any longer."⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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It goes along with so many other lessons we've learned, mainly: the grass is always greener on the other side (unless you decide to see your own grass as green).⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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And suddenly my perspective shifted quite radically, but gently. It's time to lose the negativity of this task now, and not wait until it's over to start exercising a positive mindset. This task may be difficult, but I'm pretty good at finding the goodness in things.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Caveat: sometimes that isn't possible. Sometimes you are depressed or experiencing mental health difficulty, and are unable to see the grass as green at this time, and that is OK. Just knowing that you'll be able to see things differently at a different time can be helpful, too. <3⠀⠀